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Amelia heads for the kitchen to grab a quick cup of Ramen soup to get through the afternoon.  She plugs in the kettle and nips upstairs for the book she needs.  They say Kindles might be free soon, maybe that’ll make it easier to have the right books every time.   Returning to the kitchen she’s shocked to see a strange man pouring water out of her kettle – until she realizes it’s Eric.

“Hope you left enough for me,” she says.

He nods to the soup bowl and she sees that he filled it before filling his mug.

“Thanks.  You’re better trained than most.”  she smiles, and he nods. God he looks rough.   “You coming to class today?”

Eric shrugs as he fishes out the tea bag, and starts ladling in sugar.   “Probably not,” he mutters.

She leans back on the counter and looks at him.  Unkempt. Stubble does not suit this guy.   “Why not?”

“‘Cause I really don’t feel like it, that’s why not.”

She cocks her head, “So what, you’re gonna wallow in self pity for the rest of your life?”

He takes a sip of his tea.  She can see it’s too hot and he’s burnt his tongue, but he sticks to the tough guy act and pretends it doesn’t.  “Maybe.”

“I’d think about it.  You wanna kiss off the semester, fine, but if it was me I’d be down at the office dropping out formally so I’d get at least some of my money back.”

Eric nods, continuing to look miserable.

“‘Course, it was me I wouldn’t give her the satisfaction.”

He pins her with a glower, “But it wasn’t you, was it.”

She glowers right back, “No it wasn’t.  You don’t have the market cornered on pain and suffering.  This is the first time you’ve said two words to me and you wanna be a jerk?  I may not be a goddess but I sure don’t deserve any crap.  You wanna dump on somebody, dump on her, not me.”

Amelia turns on her heel and stomps out of the kitchen, soup and notebook forgotten  in the grip of overwhelming anger.

Eric’s jaw drops, then he calls, “Wait.”  But she doesn’t hear him, she’s too angry.   Feeling like a jerk Eric goes after her,  “Wait.  I’m sorry.”  She keeps on going for the door and is just getting it open when he catches up with her and stops the door with his hand.

“You’re right.  Look.  I didn’t mean to be a jerk.  I haven’t been thinking, and, and, you haven’t even touched your soup.”

His contrition drains away her annoyance.  “No.  I haven’t.”

“Look,” says Eric, “Why don’t you eat your soup and I’ll go get cleaned up so I can come to the lecture with you.”

She looks at him, appraisingly.

“I’m really not a jerk.”

Amelia raises an eyebrow.

“Not usually.”  Eric makes a pitiful stab at a smile.

“Okay.  Go get cleaned up.  If you’re good I’ll let you come to class with me.”  Amelia shakes her head, smiling ruefully.

His smile touches his eyes for moment.  “Deal.”

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hand forged implements reflected in bucket of water

Ethan walks into the photography lab where Jake sits at a workbench, running a slide show on the large wall mounted flat screen.

It is a series of high contrast macro shots of really surprising things.  Ethan’s not sure what many of the images actually might be, but all are clean and sharp, yet with a pervasive aura of decay.

bicycle parts

Not for the first time Ethan is overawed by young Jake’s skill.  Talent.  genius.  Whatever it is, Jake is good.

Ethan slips quietly into a chair by the door so as not to disturb Jake’s series of photographs.  Now it looks to be shots of some kind of fabric, nicotine yellow with a loose weave, maybe antique lace because it looks like it’s crumbling to dust.  Then there are images of some kind of fungal growth on what might be tree bark with an almost luminescent undertone to the lighting.

But the images that speak to Ethan are a series of metal connectors, ball bearings, and what he thinks might be the links of a bicycle chain.  His favorite is a low angle shot of a rusted out bolt protruding from some kind of sheet metal.

What makes the image so interesting to Ethan is the refracted halo of light from above.  Ethan’s not sure if the light is the sun or a clever lighting effect.

looking deep into a rear bicycle reflector

The screen goes black and Ethan asks, “Are they natural or have you been dipping into Photoshop?”

“Straight up, Ethan.  I’m a purist.  I don’t do Photoshop.”

“That’s cool.  They’re really good Jake.”  Jake looks a little uncomfortable under the praise, so Ethan continues, “You’re probably wondering why I’ve called you here today.”

Jake nods, “What’s on the agenda?”

“Professor Mol wants a slide show that can run during the Christmas party.  You know, kind of a year book effect.”

“Taking portraits of everybody?  Not my kind of thing.”

“That’s not what she’s looking for, Jake, she specifically said she doesn’t want formal portraits.  She wants a vérité kind of look  and she liked my idea of a mix of sources.  You know, web cam shots, cell pics, black and white, out of focus, blurry stuff, whatever.   She said we should be  canvassing the whole student population for contributions of their favorite candid shots of their friends.”

gargoyles at Old City Hall, Toronto ON

Jake smiles as he thinks about it.  “Sounds like a monster amount of work.  But you know, it might be fun, but we’ll need heaps of storage.  More hands too.”

Ethan flips open his laptop and logs into the Christie Photography Student wiki.  Logging in under his Teaching Assistant account he starts a new page called ‘Candid Submissions,’ and says,
“How about this, then.  People can upload their candids here then we can go though and pull the cream and assemble it all into a mammoth slide show.  That’s gonna be the grueling part.”

“Well, yeah, but first you’ve gotta get everybody’s attention.  Paper the campus with flyers, maybe make a Facebook fan page?”

detail shot of vice close enough to see tool marks

Jake asks, “So what do we wanna say in our flyer?”

“How about ‘We Want Your Pictures’.”

“Too boring, Ethan.  How about: ‘Star Quality’ ”

“Okay.”  Ethan nods, “Better.  You have any ideas about people we can dragoon into helping?  How about Q?”

Jake rolls his eyes.  “I know he’s your friend and all, but Q doesn’t seem to be straight very often.  We’d be a lot better off with Boris.”

“Okay, yeah.  And Natasha.”

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Jake watches for Ethan’s reaction as he adds, “And Liz too.”

“Um.” Noncommittal, Ethan looks away.  “I don’t think so.”

“What do you mean, you don’t think so?”  Jake says, “She’s got a good eye.”

“Maybe she does.  But maybe I’d be happier without her.”

“I don’t get it.  What’s your problem with Liz?”

“You’re too young to understand.”

Jake closes his laptop forcefully.  “Don’t give me that crap.  Ethan, you’re not my dad, you’re only a few years older than I am.  Funny how I’m not too young to do a bunch of work on your extracurriculars but suddenly I’m too young? You know Liz is a friend of mine.”

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“Okay, okay, you’re right.  I’m sorry.”  Chastened, Ethan rubs his eyebrow, staring at the table, the floor, anywhere but at Jake.

“Look, it’s, well …” he shakes his head.  “Even though it’s an extra-curricular I’m expected to work it.  I can’t afford to blow this T.A. gig, Jake, I need the cash.  But it’s just that Liz … whenever she’s around it’s like I can’t open my mouth.  I look at her and it’s game over.  I like her, okay.  I really like her.  But if she’s on this crew I’m not gonna get diddly done.  She … distracts me.”

“That is just too weird.”  Jake asks, incredulous.  “You don’t want her on the team because you like her?”

Ethan nods sheepishly.

“Don’t be a goof, it would be a great chance to get to know her better,” Jake says.  “Why don’t you ask her out?”

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“I just can’t, man.”

Ethan swivels in his chair.

“She’s a nice girl, Jake.  She doesn’t even drink.  More than that she’s a star.  What’s her average, in the nineties?  Probably almost as good as yours.  And me?  I’m faking it.  What am I, some goofball drinks too much, smokes up and parties.   I’m just barely making the grade.  She’s sure as shit too good for me, Jake.”

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teacup and spoon

Maggie is sitting at the games table absently stirring her tea, ostensibly reading the paper when Oscar comes in with a steaming mug of coffee.

“Morning, Miss Maggie.”

“Hey Oz,” she murmurs without looking up.

Oscar settles across from her, taking in the circles under her red rimmed eyes that aren’t meeting his.

“Maggie?  Have I done something to offend?” he asks.

Maggie looks up, surprised.  “Offend?  No of course not.  Why would you think that?”

“I don’t know.”  Oscar sighs.  “You’ve been distant, and now you’re unhappy to see me, so I’d thought perhaps your Stuart had an objection to our friendship, or some such thing.”

Her eyes are brimming with unshed tears, “Oh Oz, no, nothing like that.  Actually, Stu suggested I talk to you.”

Knowing he’s on the wrong page, but it’s not so bad as he feared, Oscar nods.  “I’ll do whatever I can do to help, Maggs.”

Maggie blows her nose a then takes a fortifying breath.  “I thought I could carry it myself but, I just can’t.  Someone I’ve been getting close to, am pretty close to, well, this friend is really sick.”

“Sick?   How, exactly.”

“Very sick.  Very very sick.”

“Oh my god not Katie,” blurts Oscar.

She shakes her head, “No, no. Not Katie, Oz, it’s Krystal.”

“What’s wrong with Krystal?”

“She has a tumor.”

“Oh, dear lord, I don’t know what to say.”   He reaches over to squeeze her hand.  “This is why you’ve been so moody?” she nods, not speaking,  struggling to get under control.

“It’s fine Maggie.  Take your time.”

Maggie says, “She was having headaches, and nausea too.  But her family only moved here a couple of years ago so they don’t have a family doctor.  She had to go to a clinic for a referral, and it took a long time before they could get the tests scheduled, and, well, they took too long.  The problem is a brain tumor, and it got too big.”

“Too big?” asks Oscar, not quite getting it.

“Too big to take out.  What they call inoperable,”

A gasp from behind grabs their attention.  Maggie and Oscar turn to see Jake in the doorway, his face slack with shock.

“Oh Maggie.”

Oscar beckons Jake over.  “You might as well join us lad.  Come on and sit down.”

Jake moves slowly across the room and pulls up a chair.  He stares at Maggie, clearly stricken.  “Maggie, that can’t be right.”

Maggie pushes the cup of tea she’s been fiddling with over to Jake.  “I’m afraid it is.”

“But Maggie, you don’t look, I mean,  I’m so sorry.”

Maggie doesn’t really know the freshman very well, but his eyes are full of pity.  Then she realizes he must only have heard the tail end of the conversation  and thinks she’s the one dying.

“It’s not me, Jake.  I’m healthy as a horse, it’s a friend of mine who’s sick, not me.”

Oscar cocks an eyebrow.  “That’s what comes of listening at doors, misunderstanding and innuendo. Tsk, tsk.”

Jake starts “I didn’t …”

Maggie turns to Oscar,  “It’s not his fault, Oz.  Obviously this was not something we should have been discussing in the common room.  It’s my fault.  I wasn’t thinking.”

Jake suddenly looks if anything even more upset.

“Oh, Kate!  Oh how awful for poor Nick.”

Maggie says, “Stop.” She takes a breath.  “Look, it’s not my secret, but I see it’ll drive you nuts if you don’t know.”

Jake says.  “It’s driving me nuts already.”

“Here’s the deal; I will tell you who my unlucky friend is.  She doesn’t want people to know, she wants to live her life the way she wants.  She doesn’t want pity.   So you don’t tell anyone, not your mother, your girlfriend or your priest.  Okay?”

Oscar chips in, “It goes no farther, right?”

Both stare intently at Jake who says, “I won’t say a word.”

Maggie says, “Okay, then.”

Jake leans in close to hear, Oscar scans the entrances and the upper balcony of the women’s part of the Res above, making sure there are no other inadvertent listeners.

Maggie says, softly.  “It’s Krystal.”

“Krystal.” Jake is stricken.  “No way.  I mean,  oh shit.”

Maggie nods.  “You can’t tell anybody though.”

“I wouldn’t.”  Jake shakes his head.  “I didn’t … I mean, I thought she was a bit goth, I never thought she might be sick.”

Oscar stands up, and puts on his sternest face, which surprises them both, since he’s usually scattering blarney.  He looks different, this burly serious man with smoldering grey eyes.

“So, this is a secret, right?”  Oscar’s eyes bore into Jake’s, who nods fervently.  “Just know that if this sad tale makes the rounds whoever spread it will answer to me.”

Maggie appraises Oscar carefully as he crosses surprisingly muscular arms over his broad chest.  This is a different Oscar, actually a pretty scary Oscar.

Jake nods, wide eyed.  “Yes, Oscar.” and he gets to his feet.  “Uh, I’ve got a class.”  Jake can’t leave fast enough.

Oscar sits back down.  Maggie looks at him, biting her lip, beginning to giggle.  Oscar relaxes and laughs along with her.

“Where,” asks Maggie, “did you learn to do scary like that.  That was amazing.”

“Count yourself lucky, you’ve never had the pleasure of my sainted sister.”

Maggie cracks up, a mixture of laughter and tears pour out of her in glorious release.

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tuesday

A radio tower with a globe on top and movles to indicate broadcasting, text says  and a WIFI Internet Access

Adam sits at the wheel of his car outside the record store.  He drums his fingers on the dashboard, waiting impatiently for the store to open.

The problem is that it doesn’t even look like there’s anyone inside yet.  He glances at his watch, then gets out of the car and goes up to the door.  White painted letters tell him the hours of operation.  The store doesn’t even open until ten.  That’s ridiculous.  And people wonder why there’s a recession on.

He’ll be late for class if he stays and waits.

Ruin his perfect record.

A surge of anger prompts Adam to punch the wall by the door in frustration.  The impulse is instantly regretted as skin breaks and pain shoots up his arm.

Clutching skinned knuckles he stuffs his wounded hand into the protection of his armpit.  Clenching his teeth he paces back and forth in front of the unhelpful storefront.  Eventually  the waves of pain subside.

With the pain level dropping to manageable, Adam returns to the car and opens the door with his right hand. He climbs in, being very careful not to injure himself further as he pulls the door closed.  Examining his knuckles he notes the scrape will certainly leave bruises.  But the skin is only broken in two places.

Adam shakes his head ruefully.  What a stupid thing to do.

Reaching under the passenger seat Adam pulls out his first aid kit.  A little rubbing alcohol, a couple of Band-Aids, and a few breathing exercises later, he’s good as new.

At this point he decides to stay.

Going back for Web Design now will make him miss at least part of Computer Architecture after lunch since he’ll have to come back.  Better for his schedule if he stays.  Some people cut classes all the time.  Of course, those people don’t have his grade point average.  Still, missing half a lecture is hardly going to ruin his life.  Maybe it’s time he started taking control.  Be the master of his own destiny.   Adam smiles.

He pulls out his laptop, he could at least do some work from here.  While it cycles through the start up Adam waves around his Wi-Fi finder.  Not a whiff.  He’s surprised.  Sure, Canada may have terrible connection speeds and some of the worst price gouging in the world, but it’s not the UK so there is usually some open Wi-Fi to be had.

Except there does not seem to be any around here.  This is the old part of town, and, well, really, this store still calls itself  a record store.  A thought.  Maybe they sell records not CDs.  He jumps out of the car and goes to peer in the window.  He’s relieved to see CDs in there.  Still, it is old tech when you get down to it.  Maybe they don’t even know what Wi-Fi is.

It doesn’t look like that bad a neighborhood.

Just nothing looks very new, maybe that’s it. Older businesses run by older people probably.  He pulls into a parking spot right in front.

Driving around will turn up something.  Settling the computer in the passenger seat he pulls the seat belt around to secure it, then places the Wi-Fi finder on the dashboard.  Snapping on his own seat belt he starts the car and drives more downtown, keeping an eye on the finder.

The LED starts to pulse as he nears the library.  Something to be said for coming to the library before it opens; good parking anyway.

Adam’s watch shows it is only eight thirty.  Well.  He can at least get some work done anyway while he’s waiting.

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Moon at night

Hair wound in a towel atop her head, swaddled in her fluffy purple robe and green bunny slippers, Amelia carries her bathroom bag back to the corner room she shares with Liz.

Too bad Liz couldn’t come along tonight. Some assignment she had to work on with Jake.

Amelia is so glad she could get the night off to see the play. It was exquisite. She smiles to herself as favorite scenes play out in her mind. That actress was an excellent Juliet. And the sword fight was incredible.

There’s just something about Shakespeare.

Amelia is startled when Elsie’s door opens abruptly just as she passes. She’s about to say, ‘hey’ when she realizes it isn’t Elsie — or Eric either — everyone on the floor is accustomed to his occasional illicit presence. But this … this is some total stranger guy. Good looking, in a biker kind of way, but a total stranger.

He grins broadly at Amelia, eying her up and down, then he winks and says, “Nice threads.”

Amelia flushes violently at the ignominious reminder she’s dressed for bed. The guy blows her a kiss then slips out the fire door. She waits a beat and then checks to make sure that the heavy door really did latch behind him. Overcome with fury, she leans against the door, shaking, as the anger washes over her.

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Liz looks up from her desk with a smile as the dorm room door swings open, but the smile dissolves at the sight of Amelia’s face. Liz asks, “What’s wrong?”

“I just about ran into some strange man in the hall.”

“Well heck, we’ve gotta report this.” Liz is reaching for her cell phone when she sees Amelia’s head shake. “Why not?”

“He was coming out of Elsie’s room.”

“You’re kidding!” says Liz. “She only just dumped Eric.”

Amelia nods, “Guess she’s a fast worker.”

Hanging her bathroom bag on its hook, she shrugs off the purple robe, revealing an equally purple nightgown. Kicking off the clashing slippers, she drapes the robe on her desk chair and climbs into bed, switching on the reading lamp.

“Let’s hope it’s a one time thing.” Liz suggests hopefully.

“You know it wasn’t that bad with Eric slinking around because at least we know him, but I’m not so keen on running into total strangers when I’m wandering around in my jammies.”

Liz nods, “Lets see how it goes.”

“I just hope it doesn’t turn into a parade,” replies Amelia as she picks up her book. Thinking, it was a parade when Elsie was with Eric. It’s only gonna get worse now she’s not.

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